7 Weeks

Statistics:
7 Weeks
Starting Weight: 135
Current Weight: 132
Issues: Still extremely tired and beginning to experience a little nausea.

So I think I got my first craving today. Actually, it started last night when I went to bed. I wanted Jack in the Box tacos and onion rings. Not just any onion rings, but the ones sold at a local place called Rancho Bar 7. So what did I do at 11 o clock today? I went and got both. I ate 3 tacos and about 5 onion rings...I've still got some left over and I'll probably eat them later. Never has food tasted so good... I think Cody is also getting cravings because he informed me today that he was going to get like 12 chili dogs from Weinerschnitzel...haha, sympathy cravings I guess. This little one sure does like to eat.

The last two mornings I have been experiencing a little bit of nausea. It was more noticeable this morning. I've been experiencing food aversions, especially after I have eaten, I have no desire to see food. I remember feeling this way with my last pregnancy. The other night I made dinner and had to ask Cody to put away the leftovers because just looking at the food grossed me out. I'm trying to avoid any embarrassing episodes. I remember when I was pregnant with Brooke, I had just eaten breakfast and taken my prenatal when I felt like I had to burp. So I burped and oops...up came in the orange juice right there while I was standing in the kitchen. I just remembered thinking, "What was that about?" So, I'm trying to remember that episode when I get that urge. Haha, sorry if that grossed you all out.

On a more serious side, I have been struggling a little bit with missing Brooke. Being pregnant again is so exciting and it's what I've wanted for quite some time, but it doesn't take away the pain of losing her. I've already had this conversation with some of you, but in many ways, it's a new part of the grief process. I know that the first time I see this one will be bittersweet because I will think of the first time we saw Brooke as a little bean. I know she's with Jesus, but some days, the hurt is still very real.

My first appointment is coming up in about 2 weeks. Once again, mixed emotions about that. Cody and I are both very scarred from the last ultrasound we had with Brooke, so please pray that God will just put our fears to rest and give us peace as we venture into this again. It's one of my hurdles to get over. I've experienced so many in the last year, and I tend to get anxiety before one approaches, so if you could please just keep us in your prayers, we would appreciate it.

That's all for now. No new pictures because there's no real physical change.