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Tuesday, September 23, 2008

16 Weeks

Statistics:
16 weeks 5 Days
Starting Weight: 135
Current Weight: 140
Issues: None really except that my clothes are getting really tight.

Well, I went looking at maternity pants this weekend. I think they are going to become a necessity within the next week. It's hard though because I know I am going to get a lot bigger, and I don't want to get pants that fit me now and then not later. I hope that made sense. Ha! My mom was here visiting this last weekend and it was so good to see her. I took her along with me to Babies R Us to show her the crib and combo changing table/dresser I picked out for the nursery. It is so pretty. I am so excited to find out the sex of this little one so I can start REALLY shopping! We of course saw so many cute outfits...they even had a little camouflage skirt for a little girl...Cody thought that was awesome!

I am starting to feel the baby move every day now. If this was my first pregnancy, I'm sure I would think they were gas bubbles, but because I know what to look for, I can definitely tell that's not what they are. :) The baby is more active in the evening, but as I write this I can feel him or her moving in there.

I'm still trying to pay close attention to my eating habits, although I ate A LOT this last weekend. I have a doctor appointment next Wednesday, the 1st. And my 24th birthday is on the 2nd. Whoo hoo! I plan on going to California October 3-6 to visit friends and family. Cody is going to quail hunting camp with his brother...I have no interest in attending that, so I figured it would be a good excuse for me to get away. Ok, well that's all for this week. I'll keep you updated.

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

15 Weeks

Statistics:
15 Weeks 6 Days
Starting Weight: 135
Current Weight: 139
Issues: Trying to get used to sleeping on my sides instead of my back.

Nothing new to report on this week. My jeans have grown VERY tight around my belly, but still not tight in the hips, butt, or thighs which makes me very happy. That's where I gained all of my weight with Brooke, so I'm hoping this baby will be all belly. I've been trying to sleep on my side more than on my back because supposedly my uterus is getting heavier and it puts more pressure on my nerves in my back causing pain. Plus the baby gets better circulation with me on my side, especially the left side.

I just ate a meatball sandwich and now I feel exhausted. I know it doesn't sound like it, but I have really been trying to focus on eating more fruits and veggies...especially veggies because I just love them so much. NOT! I went out and bought the cookbook "Deceptively Delicious" by Jessica Seinfeld. She wrote it to show moms how to sneak veggies into your kids food without them knowing it. Well, I decided that I'm the kid who hates veggies and the only way I will get them in is if I sneak them into my favorite foods. So I spent my day off on Monday puree-ing butternut squash, cauliflower, and sweet potatoes with the food processor my mother in law Judi got me. I guess she wants to make sure her grandbaby gets all its veggies too.

I'm starting to feel flutters more often....particularly in the late evening and at night or after a meal. Some days I don't really feel them though...which at first caused some uneasiness...but after reminding myself that God is sovereign and in control, I calmed down...and of course then I would feel some flutters. At this point, baby is still so small that I can really only feel flutters depending on where it is positioned in my uterus.

Ok, well that's the update for now. 3 1/2 more weeks until we find out if the baby is a boy or a girl. YEAH!

Sunday, September 7, 2008

14 Weeks

Statistics:
14 Weeks 3 Days
Starting Weight: 135
Current Weight: 139
Issues: My hips were hurting pretty bad the last few nights.

So what's going on in Week 14? Nothing too new, yet there is stuff going on. We celebrated Cody's 26 birthday yesterday with lots of spaghetti and this really good pumpkin pie cake thing that my SIL Brandie made. It was good!

I had a doctor appointment with my regular OB on Wednesday. All went well, except I have decided that the only scale I like is the one at home. I try to make all of my appointments in the afternoon because Cody gets off work between 2:30 and 3 and I really like him to be able to come. But you know what the problem is in the afternoon? Everything you have eaten throughout the day is just sitting in you digestive track...so I weigh 3 lbs more than when I weigh myself in the morning. UGH! Oh well, not the end of the world. My doc is really nice. Her name is Dr. Heard-Vaughn. I was a little anxious because I knew they would be attempting to hear the baby's heartbeat with an outside doppler at this appointment. She talked to me for a few minutes about how everything looked good so far, and then she whipped out the doppler. Sometimes at this gestational age it is hard for the docs to find a heartbeat, and I was afraid that that would happen to me (as if I really needed that). Well, the baby was ready for showtime again. The doc found its little heartbeat within 5 seconds of putting the doppler on my belly. We listened to it for about 30 seconds...enough time for her to get a good rate on it. She said it's heartrate ranged from the 150s-160s (beats per minute). Now, the old wives tale is that anything over 149 is usually a girl...lower is a boy. So I of course yelled out that it's another girl....Cody is still holding out that it's a boy, and the doc assured him that it could just be an active little boy. Really, all I cared is that there was a nice strong heartbeat, which there was!

So my next appointment with the regular OB is scheduled for October 1 (the day before my birthday). It will be another routine appointment, and then she said at my following appointment (so late October/early November), she will conduct her mid-pregnancy ultrasound to make sure the baby is developing ok and we will find out the sex....bummer right? WRONG. My perinatologist, Dr. Kuhlman, is conducting her mid pregnancy ultrasound on October 10th...I will be 19 weeks then and if the baby cooperates, we should find out the sex at that appointment. I am hoping this baby will take after her big sister and give us a clear shot during that ultrasound. For those of you that don't know, Brooke was no question a girl. She was ready for that big ultrasound, so I'm hoping Baby #2 does the same.

Ok, well, we're off to small group. Here are my latest belly shots for you all to enjoy. The jeans I'm wearing are the last ones I can button comfortably. They're really low rise.

14 Weeks 3 Days

14 Weeks 3 Days Sideview

Sunday, August 31, 2008

13 Weeks

Stats:
13 Weeks 3 Days
Starting Weight: 135
Current Weight: 136
Issues: None really. My pants are all getting too tight.

Well, I thought I wasn't going to need maternity clothes until a little further down the road, but I was wrong. It really is true: you "show" a lot faster with your second. I woke up a few days ago and glimpsed at myself in the mirror and thought I could suck it in. Nope. So my "pooch" is turning into a little belly. It's still not an obvious pregnancy belly, but it's enough for me to notice it. I'm still not wearing maternity clothes yet. I'm just using the old rubber band to keep the button on my pants connected. I've noticed that a lot of the shirts that I have and that are in fashion right now provide a loose fit around the tummy area, so that helps in the fashion department as well.

As I mentioned last week, I thought I began to feel movement about a week ago. Every day at random times, baby lets me know that it's there. It's not the "big" movements I will be feeling later on down the road, and the flutters are not even as strong as they will be in a few weeks...but because I know what to look for now, I'm feeling very subtle flutters. It's a pretty neat feeling, although right now there's really no pattern to it. I have to be very still, such as lying down or sitting in one place for a while to feel them. It's way cool.

I've decided that I really like my perinatologist, Dr. Kuhlman. I was a mess after finding out that I had Factor V Leiden because all I could think of was how it was going to affect this baby. Because it brought up a lot of thoughts about Brooke, I think that just propelled my emotions and I became very scared. After fretting for two days, I finally called her to just have a few questions answered. I wanted to know why I was only on baby aspirin and if I do develop a clot that would affect the baby (i.e. in the placenta or the cord), would they be able to know? She was so kind in answering my questions. She didn't make me feel dumb at all (like many doctors do) and invited me to bring ANY concerns I have to her. She said I only really need a baby aspirin because I personally have not had any problems with a blood clot and of the seven clotting conditions she tested me for, only 1 came back positive. Even after having a c-section I didn't develop a clot (most people w/this condition are prone to develop them after surgery). She said the baby aspirin should be good to just thin my blood a little bit. As far as my concerns about the baby, she said that there wasn't any problems with Brooke's placenta (it was analyzed after delivery) and she doesn't anticipate any with this baby. However, she said they will be watching the baby's growth and other factors, such as my amniotic fluid levels, very closely in the final two months of my pregnancy. If they detect something abnormal at that time, she said then they would have reason to suspect something wasn't right. I felt very good after talking with her, mostly because she didn't make me feel dumb.

The hardest part about having had a stillbirth is that there are so many unknowns. While Brooke's death was ruled a cord accident, I still feel like there is still so much unknown about what really happened. And the only one who knows is God. I still struggle with losing her, although I know I've come a long way, I will just never be the same again. There's just so many emotions that I can't fully explain after going through something like that.

I felt like I took a dive in my faith walk after that episode. I just had to be reminded that God is in control...not me...not my doctors. There is nothing I can do that will alter His plan for me or this child. He had me reading some scripture in my Daily Bible that just reaffirmed that notion, and I knew He was speaking to me. So after asking forgiveness and expressing a heartfelt cry, I felt much better. To make things even better, He answered some things I have been praying for for a while this week...almost like He was like, "See, I hear you." Not that He has to do that...He's God...but it's so awesome that He loves us enough to do that.

Regular doctor appointment is this Wednesday. I have my next ultrasound with my perinatologist in the beginning to middle of October. Hard to believe....but if the baby cooperates, we will find out if we are expecting a little girl or a little boy at that ultrasound. So exciting. :)

Monday, August 25, 2008

12 Weeks

Stats:
12 Weeks 4 Days
Starting Weight: 135
Current Weight: 135
Issues: Just normal pregnancy hormones!

Well, Cody and I are back from our wonderful trip to the White Mountains. It was so nice to be in cooler weather. We got some rain up there and that really made things nice and cool. I had to actually use my sweaters and I had some hot chocolate at night too. I can't really explain how beautiful it all was. I took lots of pictures though. Too bad the fan motor in Cody's truck went out yesterday, so you know what that meant. No A/C in the truck! It wasn't bad for the first 3 hours of the trip because we were in high elevation mountains. But once we got to Phoenix....forget it! What were we doing driving in August in Phoenix with no air? Crazy.

Well, my perinatologist, Dr. Kuhlman, left two messages while I was gone. I had my blood pulled before we left because as I wrote in my last post, she wanted to have my blood tested for any clotting issues. I had seven tests done and it turns out that I have a genetic single mutation known as Factor V Leiden which makes my blood slightly more susceptible to blood clots. This specifically is what I wanted to be tested for because there is a history of blood clots in my family and I have met a few other women on the internet who had stillborn babies and afterwards had their blood tested and they too had this mutation. When I initially met with Dr. Kuhlman, she said that Brooke's umbilical cord possibly was not as strong as it should have been, making it more prone to being compressed and cutting off flow. A problem with the blood flow (i.e. blood clots) through the placenta could have caused this problem. So I don't know FOR SURE that's what happened last time, but it is all making sense to me. She said that right now, I just need to take a baby aspirin once a day to slightly thin my blood. She says there is no need for any other blood thinners at this point, unless I go into pre-term labor or anything like that.

I asked her if having this mutation in my blood means that I should not attempt a VBAC (vaginal birth after cesarean) and just schedule another c-section delivery. She said no. In fact, surgery increases my risk for developing a blood clot (jeopardizing my health) and she still thinks a VBAC will be fine. She gave all of my lab reports to my normal OB as well and said she wants to see me again between 19 and 20 weeks for my mid-pregnancy ultrasound.

So that's what's going on with my weird blood. I don't want everyone to get too excited yet....but I believe I am starting to feel a little bit of movement. I've been feeling it very slightly the last two days. They say that with your second you feel movement earlier because you know what to expect. I started feeling movement with Brooke at about 15 weeks...so maybe because I know what to look for I'm feeling it a little earlier now. Who knows?

Well, I'm going to go eat and get some rest.

Thursday, August 14, 2008

11 Weeks

Statistics:
11 Weeks
Starting Weight: 135
Current Weight: 135.5
Issues: Digestive issues...

First, thank you to everyone who prayed for us on Monday. As I posted last week, Monday was Brooke's first birthday. I did very well. I just treated it like any other day. I went to the Phoenix Zoo (which was not crowded but VERY HOT) with my family and we had a great time. One year ago, I never thought I would be this happy and peaceful. God's everlasting kindess and love is amazing!

I met with the perinatologist on Tuesday. I was a little nervous, but everything went GREAT. The hospital is approximately one hour from Wickenburg, so as I was driving there, pregnancy bladder struck! I had to pee so badly and of course, I hit every red light once I got on Thunderbird Road. Those 4 miles were torture! Haha, so I got to the hospital and had to go through admissions before going in for my ultrasound. That process was kind of hard for me, because I literally was doing the same thing one year ago...and I came out 4 days later with no baby. I just kept thinking positive and the lady was really nice, so that was good.

I then went down the hall to the perinatologist's office. I was waiting for Cody to show up (he had some issues with parking) and the ultrasound tech came out to greet me. We met Cody at the entrance and we walked back into the room. I started to cry just going in there. The tech was so kind to me and understood my crying. I think I'll get better with the ultrasounds once I start to feel movement. Anyways, they proceeded with the ultrasound and there was our baby. It no longer looks like a peanut. It had little arms and legs and it knew it was time to perform. It was kicking, punching, and rolling around. Cody and I were just ao amazed at how active it was. And then it took it's right hand and put it on top of it's head like, "Oh, that was so exhausting!" The heart rate was 172 BPM and the tech said the baby was positioned in my uterus exactly where it should be. She also said that the baby's growth was 3 days ahead of schedule, but when she did the transvaginal ultrasound measurements, it was 1 day. Either way, she said it's perfectly normal.

Many of you know I was concerned about my uterus possibly being abnormally shaped. The doctor who did my c-section with Brooke said it appeared bi-cornuate, or heart shaped. Well, after a good 20 minutes of examining my uterus by ultrasound, the tech and the perinatologist agreed that my uterus IS NOT heart shaped. She said that perhaps how the placenta attached last time could have given my uterus a heart shaped appearance.

So after a wonderful ultrasound, Cody and I met with the perinatologist in her office. She went over my records with me and just listened to my concerns. She said that 25% of babies are born with the cord around the neck, but a triple nuchal cord (what Brooke had) is very rare, and even more rarely do babies die from it. She said that Brooke's death could have possibly been a combo of things.... cord wrapped around the neck with low amniotic fluid could have caused her to more easily compress her cord or my placenta may not have been functioning as well as it should have in those final weeks. She said that while Brooke's size was not abnormally small (6 lbs 3 oz 19 in), it is a little on the low side for a 40 week baby. She thinks that maybe in those final weeks, Brooke was starting to fall off the growth chart. So because of my family history with blood clots and just to rule anything out, she is having some blood tests run on me to rule out anything in my blood that may cause future problems. If there is anything, she says that there are so many treatments available.

So off I will go to get my blood drawn. Yippee! If everything turns out OK with that, she says that they will start monitoring me at around 32 weeks with non-stress tests and biophysical profiling, in addition to ultrasounds to check on baby's growth. All reassuring things. She is also supportive of letting me attempt a VBAC (vaginal birth after cesarean) which made me glad.

So that's what's been going on. Cody and I are headed up to Greer this weekend and we will not be back until the 25th, so my next post will probably not be for another two weeks. Below is a pic from the ultrasound. It's not as clear as the last one, but it will work. :)

Baby at 10 Weeks 5 Days

Saturday, August 9, 2008

10 Weeks

Statistics:
10 Weeks 2 Days
Starting Weight: 135
Current Weight: 135
Issues: Still a little nausea and fatigue.

I can't believe I'm already at 10 weeks. By now, I'm sure all of you have seen "Peanut." Cody and I were just so thrilled to show off our baby to all of our friends.

As I write this, I have just returned from a long day trip. My mom and my sister are visiting from California. Cody decided to go on a fishing trip with his brother Lane to Yuma (who wants to hangout with the girls anyways), so we took an all day road trip. We went up to Prescott, then visited the small town of Jerome, Cottonwood, Sedona, and then hit our target, Flagstaff. Oh, it was so nice to be in much cooler weather. We were at an outdoor mall, when, the monsoon struck. It started raining SOOOO hard. Who thought I would have to put a sweater on in the middle of August? It was so beautiful and we really had a good time.

On a different note, Brooke's birthday is in two days and so far I feel pretty good. I think of her every day. It's still hard to believe it's already been a year. Having another baby on the way helps with the grief, but I still miss Brooke. :(

I've been spending a lot of time looking at boy clothing, not because I really feel like the baby is a boy, but because I am already familiar with all the adorable clothing available for girls. I was feeling very discouraged with boy clothing, as I don't want to dress him in sharks, bugs, or puppy dog ears. Why don't they make the same kind of cute stuff for boys? It's like they devote 3/4 of the baby section to girls, and then the boy section is the remaining quarter and it can't even compare in cuteness. I did see some really cute boy clothes at Old Navy though. They had these little onesies with guitars all over it, so if this baby is a boy, we will be picking that up. Like father like son...

I have my first appointment with the perinatologist on Tuesday. I will be having an ultrasound and then a consultation. A perinatologist is a doctor who specializes in high risk pregnancies. Don't be alarmed. Nothing so far is indicating that this is a high risk pregnancy...but because of my stillbirth, my OB wants me to meet with her so that I may have more peace of mind. She is the head of the Maternal & Fetal Medicine Unit at Thunderbird Hospital (the hospital I will be delivering at) and is part of Phoenix Perinatal Associates. From her bio, I also understand that she is a Christian, which is very encouraging. Anyways, she does more in depth ultrasounds and will probably be overseeing my biophysical profiles and non-stress tests later on in the pregnancy.

Ok, well, that was a lot. Below is my ten week photo of my belly. Still no weight gain, but my pants are starting to fit a little tighter.


10 Weeks 1 Day